Susie.loves You

Jul 04 2008 ∞

I have susie and thats all i need. Or should i say thats all i have. My idea and concept had been proven wrong. It is time to shut down this project. This is my last and final post as Susie.
One weak from now, everything will be deleted and not backed up.

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Elephant Poo

My heart has become too weak. Just the smallest thing can make it acke. Everyday i grow weaker and i don’t know what causes it. Perhaps the it’s fear of not finding love. It just chews at away at the heart as we speak.

It hurts to know that someone sad. Even if there’s nothing i can do about. I can’t help it. It just makes me sad on the inside. It just tells me that I’m doing something wrong. This whole time, I thought it was the other person. I thought i was doing everything i could. It’s time to point the finger at myself.

I knew i was never good at this stuff. I don’t know why i try. I have to figure who I am. Why am i placed on this world. Certainly i know what im not here for, love.

Now all I ever want is someone that’ll love me. I don’t care about those cute girls anymore. I don’t care about this fashionable woman. I just want someone that’ll love me. Atleast i know it’ll be everlasting.

But where do i put these feelings now? I wish i can just give them all back to you and move on. But it’s that easy for me, not that easy for my heart.

Now it’s a battle between Want and Need.
Is love something I just want, or is it something that i truly need.

I love you and i will always love you. If i have to wait 3 weeks or 3 years, ill be here waiting.

Love will always be something I hold onto. It’s my only sense of motivation. It’s the only thing that’ll keep me going.

I fear that i will never experience love.

Jun 29 2008 ∞

Hercules from DBZ.

Jun 26 2008 ∞

My name is Valentine

So I layed bed, tearing up from the mistakes i made. I tried to calm myself by thinking of some good times. It was just not enough. So grabbed my psp and my jacket and went for a stroll in the SGV. I ended up in smith park sitting on the swings listening to John Legend starring off into the stars, glancing at the moon knowing that one i’ll have a friend going there someday. I got back home at 12 sharp, walked into my room and crawled into bed, zipped up my purple jacket all the way up. It still smells like tour. (=

Jun 25 2008 ∞

Valentine

Love was just never meant to be for everyone.
If there was really a love God out there,
he is doing everything little thing to stop it for me.

Jun 23 2008 ∞

ruff ruff

Jun 17 2008 ∞

I don’t negotiate w/ terrorists.

Jun 16 2008 ∞

Deep Conversations of the Willing

Lisa: If you had a significant other, would you rather have similar personalities or similar interests?
BryanP: think having both would benefit the couple. By having similar personalities, your core fundamentals add up. Meaning, if you have one person who likes to go out and the other who doesn't, then you will have fundamental personality conflicts. This is HARD to repair because it's not as easy changing someone's personality opposed to changing someone's personal interests. Opposites attract usually talk about the male and female, not the traits they possess. What you want is a bond. That is why, in relationships, you would probably want to find out about the person first to see if they are a "match" for you. If the other person feels the same way then you have a green light to take the relationship to another level. This is aided by having similar interests. The faster you can find out about that, the better.If you want to try something "new" with the significant other, then that's all through compromise, but having a strong foundation IMO is fundamental to any relationship. Any serious relationship, at least.
Raf: interest > personality. But then again im not looking for marriage anytime soon
BryanP: think interests will rub, but not necessarily personality UNLESS one is willing to change for the other. For example, if you're introverted and your partner wants to get involved in extroverted activities because that's what he/she likes to do, then there might be a point in the relationship where one gets sick and tired of it.
Tampson: don't think you really need similar personalities or interests... having similar values and knowing how to compromise probably works out better.
BryanP: Exactly. Relationships would probably be smoother if everyone agreed with each other. It wouldn't be boring per-se because if you're compatible, then you'd probably want to go out and find new things to do. People aren't necessarily dormant, and if the couple as a pair is dormant, then there obviously isn't any problem with that. IMO there's less things to have conflicts over having similar traits (personality or interests, or both). For example, those "dating" services won't function too well if they decided to pair you up with people who aren't even like you.
Me: Why not both? I'd like to have both
Raf: You can't have both
Me: *sadface*
Raf: *There, There*

Jun 15 2008 ∞

Nice Guy

Why am i such a push over?
Am I just you’re typical nice guy?
What do you want from me?
What do you want to know from me?
Don’t I have feelings as well?

Please don’t use me,
unlike the rest.

Jun 14 2008 ∞

love Stuck on repeat

Jun 12 2008 ∞

sophiniesom:

damn! it’s been a long time since i’ve been so impressed with flash!

http://www.uniqlo.jp/mixplay/

U-Min For The Win.
Hip_Hop_Save_My_Life

Jun 11 2008 ∞

Walk, Just Do It.

So for the past 2 day’s I’ve been walking home from PCC to my house. Some may say it’s far but distance never affects me.

But iloved the long walks that i took. I walked through San Marino homes and they are just beautiful. The streets are clean, people walking down the street and greeting meet as they pass. I love this atmostphear. It just gave me time to think and i feel good about it.

Then walking from San Marino to North San Gabriel was a sudden change. All of a sudden, the bigger houses turned into smaller, yet large houses. The gigantic yards turned fenced walls with doors.
Then as i walked into the heart of San Gabriel, everything turned old school yet it was still modern. Then the houses got smaller, the grasses on the front yard turned into just dirt and the roads starting to have potholes.
Sudden change only happens in the suburbs of California.

I Love Los Angeles

Jun 06 2008 ∞

Love Bug

To those fellas out there, have you ever been in a situation where you have a girlfriend or wife and this really cute/hot girls starts talking to you and is just all over you? It sucks doesn’t it? It’s like “Why couldn’t have found me 2 years ago before i meet my girlfriend or something?!”
My theory is that girls are after the guys with girl friends is because the have an aura and charisma of nice and good feelings as opposed to those where the guys are are “chasing” or looking for girl friends, it makes them seem vicious in the dating world. It’s not the females nature to ruin a relationship between a man and his significant other. They just want some good and pure that the guy has and is showing when they’ve found someone special.

Now then, it’s up to yourself if you want to cheat on your significant other for something different. To thrive for that sort of excitement.
Unforunately, I’m won’t do something like that. Yet again, my situation is different.

I am not quite in a relation of any sort with anyone right now. But i am happy with myself. But i very often reject many females because i feel that it’s not right. I’ve been out of a relationship for more then half a year but how do i know when it’s the right time to go back into the playing field? When is the time where you’re rebounding and when is it not?
Perhaps I am throwing people out of my face because i am not being loyal to myself. I have had told myself to swear of girls and never deal with anything anymore. But i long for those feelings with being with someone. Those feelings of closure, compassion. Oh how I dearly miss it.

But the best way remind myself is that love hurts. It truly does. It may heal your heart for the short term, but the heart can only be so fragile. It only hurts more then it then how much happiness.

It’s time to be myself again. And only I, myself, could only Me.
It’s time to tell myself, Susie.loves me.

Next Stop: No One

Jun 05 2008 ∞

Someday, I’ll have my own Island.
We could have a bbq, sleep on hammocks and watch the sunsets.
Someday, someday.
But it won’t be tomorrow.

Jun 04 2008 ∞

The world is not that big.
It’s the perspective from where we grew was told that the world is big.
In actuality, we live in quite a small world.
People are people, and feelings are feelings.
That’s how similar everyone is and that’s simple is has to be.

This video is so dope an inspirational for me.